Last post of 2009

By now many people has posted about their being the last post of 2009. I am of no difference.

2009 is not a good year for me. This is my year of changes.

These are the changes in my life....

I am no longer working in the students motivation activities


I broke off with a very dear friend of mine


A close friend of mine has finally shown his true colors


I was called a dog


I was accused that my credentials are bogus


I learn first handed that who ever claimed to be your friends are actually not your friends


I learn what is racist in its true terms


I learn that it's very hard to do a good deed.


I have my first FACEBOOK account.


I enjoyed playing Mafia Wars.


I visited China after 10 years has lapse from the first visit.


I reconnect with my old schoolmates (about 45 of them)


I like to read Malaysia Today and Malaysiakini


I gave up reading Utusan Malaysia and News Straits Times


I have stopped from working full time


I started my first blog this year


I have made a lot of new international friends and the latest being Frank from China


erm......and ........ shhhhhsssssssssssssss!!!!!!

Finally, we have 1MALAYSIA or have we??

Sabah & Sarawak to be relocated

December 14, 2009

UALA LUMPUR — In an effort to strengthen national unity and in line with the 1Malaysia concept, Prime Minister Datuk Seri Mohd Najib Tun Razak announced today that the East Malaysian states of Sabah and Sarawak would be moved to the peninsula.

BEFORE: Sabah and Sarawak in their current location

Speaking at a Press conference after a Cabinet meeting, Najib said that the relocation was necessary to ensure that the nation’s different peoples would not have any more physical boundaries to mix around.

“We’ve had the vast South China Sea separating the two Malaysias for the longest time now,” said the Prime Minister excitedly. “It’s time to close the gap, and allow our different races, tribes and cultures to naturally immerse with one another.”

The relocation plan is scheduled to start next year, with reclamation works commencing in May.

AFTER: The new, unified '1Malaysia' Malaysia

“It’s a big project, costing well over RM850 trillion,” said Najib. “The project would take 10 years to complete, since we’d need to move all the soil, water sources, flora, fauna, man-made structures and of course, the people. But it’ll be worth it, since we’ll truly be 1Malaysia.” RM850 trillion for this project. Can't the government spend this PEOPLE'S MONEY on PEOPLE in this trying times??

The two huge states, spanning nearly 200,000 square kilometres, are now part of the greater Borneo island together with Brunei Darussalam and the part of Indonesia called Kalimantan, but would be joined with the eastern side of Peninsular Malaysia.

“The states would be reconstructed almost exactly identical to how they are now,” said Najib. “This would ensure that the natives would not feel ‘out of place’ when they move back to their relocated homes.

“Of course, we might ‘improve’ some things when we rebuild the states. We’re thinking, maybe Mount Kinabalu could be higher than Everest. I mean, why not? It’s not every day that you get to change what nature has given us. Taking over one of the role of God.....

“And if we take the soil from inside Gua Niah and use it to add on Mount Kinabalu’s height, we’d get both a bigger cave and taller mountain, effectively rewriting two Guinness World Records. Now that’s what I call value for money!” Correct me if I am wrong, isn't Gua Niah a world heritage and is under protection.....If Mount Kinabalu is 'moved', would it be called Mount Kinabalu?

Asked what the neighbouring Brunei and Indonesia had to say about the move, Najib said that he had discussed the issues with the leaders of both nations.

“His Majesty the Sultan of Brunei did ask me why we were taking Sabah and Sarawak away, leaving his kingdom just a group of tiny islands in the middle of the South China Sea. The Indonesian president also voiced his concern,” said the PM.

“However, I told them that we all need to ‘hijrah’ to better ourselves, and that neighbours move away all the time. And I also reassured them that although we may be physically further after this, we would always be close in our hearts. They were very understanding.

“Besides, after this, there’d be no more issue of illegal smuggling across the borders and such.”

On protests by the Kelantan state government, citing the ‘loss of a coastline’ and ‘off-shore petroleum’, Najib said that this is of national interest, and the opposition-held state administration should not be so selfish. Let me see, Sarawak can retain its off-shore petroleum but not Kelantan..... GOOD???

“These people simply refuse to understand the importance of 1Malaysia. They keep on looking a the small things like the death of their fishing industry or the loss of billions of ringgit of income." Then the needs of this people (MALAYSIAN) are not important??

LUCKILY THIS ARTICLE IS ONLY FICTIONAL. If it's truth then it would be VERY VERY VERY BAD

How much does a life cost?

This morning, there was a heavy rain. It's like the heaven is crying for something. For several days, the dogs are also crying at night. If this was a horror story, it would be scary. Anyway, as I was browsing the Facebook, I chance upon a posting posted by a Filipino friend. She posted a series of photos on Maguindanao Massacre. I won't be posting her photos here because they were quite graphic. Definitely not for those who have weak heart and stomach.


Here's the snippet of that story.


The morning of November 3, 2009 spells one of the most tragic and bloody conflict in Maguindanao, Mindanao, Philippines. Basing on the reports, 13 women, 8 men and counting 34 journalists were ambushed and murdered while on their way to submit their candidacy for Esmael Mangudadatu to the local Commission on Elections (Comelec) in the office of Maguindanao. Mr. Mangudadatu is challenging mayor Andal Ampatuan, Jr. for gubernatorial seat.


Come on, the men and women were killed for a simple election. It they were killed by gunshots, it's kind of humane way to die but to be hacked by chainshaw and bashed to death... well...the murderers are not human at all. Everybody is born the same way through the conception in the mother's womb, then the period of carrying the fertilised eggs for 9 months and finally, through the not fun process of laboring, bring forth a human being. Everybody has a mother and a father and NOBODY deserve to die this way.


The purpose of this massacre is because that group was on the way to submit a candicacy. Just to think, to maintain or to obtain powers and moneys, just resort to killing another human life. Is there all there is about life? Power and Money. When did human become so low life? U know if we are not careful, this could happen in Malaysia, my home. I have seen corruptions everywhere to maintain power and money. It won't be long, this massacre would happen here. Remember, the infamous Mona Fandey who beheaded Mazlan Idris in 1993, all for the money.


Sometimes, when people wants more money and power, they don't go for murder, they just use 'black magic'. Before this, I haven't seen one in action. Recently, I did a lot research on why some men are so attentive to the opposite sex that they would leave their normal life to lead a new unknown life. Hahaha basically, I am talking about the janda I knew. I just heard that she and my 'friend' are back together although both of them denied it. One day, I was browsing through internet looking and I chance upon this...


Nasi KangKang, literally means Squatting Rice. It's some sort of love potion made for men. It was believed that after eating the rice, the man was bound to abide entirely by the woman's wishes. His mind will be reset and zombified. Any of the woman's wishes such as, "buy me a diamond" would be fulfilled immediately. How to make it? Simple...search for the answer through Internet.


I suspect that this janda has given him this specially made rice. If you know how it is made, it would want to make you puke and he's happilly eating away....YUCKS!!!!!


Well... this is the world I am living in.

Travel

Boy, am I addicted to traveling. I think I'm infected by the travel bugs. I just came back from Penang and now I am itching to set foot on my way to another place far away...maybe Shanghai...
Yup, Shanghai....wish I could go but alas... it's only a dream for time being.


My Tai Kor and his friend have been planning on a business trip to Shanghai.... secretly I wish to follow, but knowing Tai Kor, he would say "NO GIRLS / WOMAN ARE ALLOWED"


Well, I just have to dream on.


Remember the janda, here's the latest news... she has found herself a new victim... her ex boyfriend...


Why I AM SO DISLIKE HER??? Simple, she disgraced all widows out there... What kind of woman who would find men, entertain them then squeeze out any tiny drops of money from the men's pockets until they are totally dried out. She has the nerve to boast and to announce her intention is to find men who are rich and 'strong' to support her... YUCKS....


I wish I can put her photo here but then I don't want her to start running to bomoh to curse a spell on me. Rumour has it that she loves to use the bomoh's service to put spells on her men so they would do her biddings days and nights....


Well, if anyone wants to get to know her her better, just email me... and I'll will give you her number but YOU have been warned. Know her at your own risk.

Incredible Tales

I love to watch this series. This is about the tales on supernaturals. The series are created by a team from Hong Kong, which is headed by Master Szeto.


This time around they made a movie based on the tales. I managed to get an uncensored version of it.


For those who are faint hearted, this is not for you. In the first part, the team followed the members of a society which collect dead bodies of people who has died unnatural death. Well, they managed to shoot a film of a man who has killed himself by hanging from the windows and from slicing his wrist. They showed clearly the feature of that man. This is the first time I saw a person dead from hanging. The thing that struck me me was that he has wet himself while in the process of dying and also that he has seen himself dying from the mirror which was in front of him. Kind of scary......


The other parts of the stories are the feeding of 'toyol' using the blood from a live chicken and fish, the process of making a blood curse which is reputed to have the power to change the luck of one's person, the process of healing a lady suffering from the worm curse (I hate this part because it clearly showed the woman spitting out tons and tons of wriggling worms...yucks).


There is a part on the trying to ascertain the myth that a yin's breath can bring back the soul of the dead person from the other side. They asked the hostess to open the coffin and to give the dead person a yin's breath.... very scary and I believe that the smell of the decayed body can be terrible.


Another part which I find fascinating is that the team has visited Papan, Ipoh yes our Ipoh. It seemed that there's a village there which is deserted to the the myth that the villages have dug up their ancestors' bodies and let them bathe in the sunlight. It was said that they changed the luck of that village to become worst and thus most of the villagers left or have died early.
The team has asked a girl name Ka Ka, who can seen ghosts to talk to them and one of them managed to possess her body. She immediately talk and behave like a man.

The final part of the story was that the team visited Kellie's Castle. They set up cameras all over the place. One of them fell down and when they recover the tape, it clearly show up close a ghost pushing down the camera....
How about that????


Namoamitofu

Penang.....again!!!

Yes, I went to Penang again. I made the trip on last Tuesday. I had thoughts of not going after the last time I went to Penang. What did happen during the last trip? Let me recap....oh yes... the punctured tire near Jawi which made my trip back to KL about 14 hours which caused me to loose the chance of seeing a fren off to Japan AND also to loose an old friend after that trip to Penang.

That's why I have second thoughts of going to Penang. Furthermore, early that morning I can't seem to find my book of prayers as it seems to dissapear into thin air.....some sign of bad omen BUT it manage to resurface in another bag of mine and so off I went to Penang.

This time around I stayed at the same place. I was thinking of checking into one of the hotels there but there were fully booked by one convention of Amway. The room which I can find would cost me RM 400++ per night... huh... too much for me. So, I had to stay at the same place which holds a lot of unpleasant memories.

This time around, I had some 'companies'... yeap these fellas would be out playing around at night... u know those things which go bumps at night. There were a lot in this area... anyway, I won't name that place. I have stayed in that area 3 times in a row and it never fails to 'entertain' me.

The reasons I went to Penang because I had to send an old 'friend' out to the sea, to buy DVDs, I wanted to see my friends who are based in Penang (sadly to say I didn't see them) and also to meet a friend of mine who is based in Kulim. It was so nice of him to come down to Penang to see me (hehehe got business with him).

I only spent one night in Penang then I came back home. I felt kind of funny staying in that place. Another thing that strucked me is that along that stretch of road, there's no place to have breakfast, so, I had to go all the way to Air Itam to get my brunch. Another reason I went to Penang is because I wanted to go to Kek Lok Si. I just felt like going there, to get something from there. At first, it seemed that I won't be getting what I wanted but at the end, I managed to get one.

This time around, nothing bad happen and I had conquer my phobia ..... yipppie

Feel like sleeping

The weather has been acting very strange lately. Today, it shows it is going to rain. Yesterday, it didn't rain, the previous day, it was raining... so, I presume, there will be no rain tomorrow.


I am feeling very sleepy right now. I didn't get much sleep. I had to make a police report around midnight because someone told me that the Klang police station won't be congested.. so I believe him and I went around midnight. Yup... he was right. It was my first time in the newly renovated police station. Well, after making a statement, I had to go up to the 3rd floor to meet on Sarjan Az..


I thought ok 3rd floor, no problem.. peace of cake... stairs only ma... Phew... nobody told me that I have to climb the stairs up to the 3rd floor and the stairs are not inside the building. I can practically see the building below me getting smaller and smaller.... It was still ok to climb up but to climb down,, that's the big problem. Suddenly, I felt I can't move my legs and I had to hold on to the handle just to climb down. It was a scary feeling climbing down from the 3rd floor. When I reached the ground floor, I was full of relief. Erm.. now I know I am scare of heights hehehe


A friend of mine whom I have not met for more than 10 years found me in FB... yup thanks to FB again. Her name is Vivien. We were quite close back then. Well, she is hanging on to my words of be my friends and I will tell you my stories. Well, I have to keep my promise. I tried to tell her one today but I am too sleepy to think... What would I say, where would I start...hehehe.. she's online now in FB. Vivien, here's yr story.

New Words

I had a lot of laugh on last Friday and Saturday. My friends, E and L, they love to talk a lot... When they talk, sometimes they would stumble on words... such as

Muzium Samudera -> Muzium Samutu
Kereta kabel -> Kereta kebal
jambatan -> jambatu
Honda Civic -> Honda V6 (created by K)
surau -> rasau (created by Je)

We would have fun time creating sentences using those mispronounced words....What a fun day

1 Malaysia

Every now and then, our leaders would come out with a statement to promote 1 Malaysia. I don't know it would work or not...we all know what is really going on in Malaysia.

Well the leaders are busy promoting this but do they really go down to the grass roots.

For the past few days, a friend of mine, E would tell stories of teachers being not promoting the concept of 1 Malaysia. She told me that some of the teachers accompanying the school's field trip would not go to certain places just because that places belong to Chinese company. You tell me, does a mushroom farm and a chips' factory would do any harm to the school children just because they belong to Chinese? Then there is this particular teacher from a KL school who requested that they want to go to places which only belong to the Malays...... huh???

Then there is another parent who told me that her child's teacher told her to go back to the Mainland China because she does not belong her as her BM is poor.

My question is that what's the point of having our leaders promoting the concept of 1 Malaysia and the Education Ministry running the Rancangan Integrasi Murid Untuk Perpaduan for the school children when some of the teachers are not keen to integrate??? Waste of money, don't you think???

Another example... http://niamah.blogspot.com/2009/11/fix-it-and-make-it-better-or-worse.html

My money is mine, his money his mine too

Nope, this is not about me. It's about a malay woman, nearly 40 yrs old,who is twice divorcee, who has 3 kids and is now looking for a new prey, I mean a man especially a young man.

I knew her from a friend of mine. She proclaimed to be a true Islam and a true lady. She is my friend girlfriend until she found out that he is poor with no job and has a lot of debts in hand.

Although she is nearly 40s, she proclaimed herself to be cute just like the teens. She told me in her own words..'Laki aku dua sebab aku bosan asyik laki yang sama jer, aku nie comel. Aku nak duit jantan aje. Aku saja cita laki aku suka pukul agar dia kesian'.

What kind of a woman is that? Not only did she bring disgrace to all woman out there but also disgrace herself in her own words. She would preach the rules of Islam but I think she has broken each one of them.

Based on her words, there might be other guys who would be foolishly fall in love with her. She's not cute at all.. she's a short fat lady who still live in a dream. Pity my friend who has fallen for her, lost his job over her and now he has nothing at all.

I I could, I would post her photo so as to give warning to the other guys but I don't want to be sued hahaha... I think she is now on prowl and I believe her next victim would be the assistant to a Datuk. I wonder how many men she had?

6th day in China

Yes, today we are going to visit qufu. It took us half a day to reach Qufu, the birthplace of Confusius. This has become my routine everyday... woke up early, check out and on the road again going to a new unknown place. So far, the journey is through highways but once in a while, I would be travelling through the countryside. I managed to get a glimpse of villagers washing their clothe along the streams. I had never seen one live before.. well that was the first time. Another scene which I can't forget is that men would wear jackets, the one we use to wear to office to work in farms. I remembered my guide Wei, told me that many years back, when the Chinese go out from the country, the government would sponsor them RMB 300 to buy jackets/coats to wear overseas so as to enhance their image. No wonder, back in Malaysia, I would see Chinese men wearing jacket/coat.

Back to Qufu, I reached the small town around noon. It's a busy town. I was very excited to see Confusius birthplace. I was told that it's a town within a town. In the middle of the town, there would be a fortress and his house, temple and mouseleum lie within the fortress. There are no personal cars inside the fortress, only those authorised vehicles are allowed within. So, wherever you go in the town, u would get the glimpse of the fortress. Best still, the famous Emperor Qing Long of the Ch'ng dynasty always stepped foot here so as to pay homage to the great teachers. He would always dined at his home and his favourite dish was........ fried taugeh with dried shrimps. The story was that he was fed up with the usual lavish dishes that he always had that he asked the family cook what other dish which has not been served. The cook got angry and so he took a bunch of beansprouts (taugeh) and fried them with dried shrimps, which is the food for the workers. The Emperor loved this dish so much and thus every time he came to Qufu, he would request this dish to be served.

Even the town is old, but one can see a lot of modern facilities here. Hahaha I even found a machine which polish shoes. The first place, I went is to pay homage to the great teacher Confusius at his temple. Since cars are not allowed inside, I have to take the local trams.

The first stop is the temple for Confusius. There are 3 walking paths leading to his temple. In the photo on the left, I was sitting at the path meant for the Emperors hahaha... cool right. Imagine, sitting on the path where the Emperors of China set foot.

The temple house a lot of pillars which would have dragons carved on them. It was considered wrong to have pillars carved with dragons as they were meant only for the Emperors palace. So, whoever did this would face death. However, the Emperors of China considered him to be a superior teacher, thus, his family was allowed to have these pillars. It was said that the family's first son is considered to be the first grade officer, second to the Emperor, thus his words were the words of the Emperor.

Next stop, was his family's first son house. which was very near to the temple. Only the first son of the family can stay here. I was told this descendents still live on today, which is his 76th descendents. One is a professor teaching in a university in Beijing and another is in Taiwan. The last place was his mouseleum. It housed 3600 of his offsprings. Our guide didn't bring us there as that place was vast and there were some old members in our groups.

We checked into our hotel which is a 4 star hotel. Surprisingly, it is a double storey building. The lobby is huge but the room is small. I never like it here as it looked so depress. What to expect as the surrounding buildings are built from ancient times. Many anguishes, tensions can still be felt here.







This is also the first place I found my first gold coin and the first glimpse of the the original graphic paper cutting.


Anyway, I stayed only a day in Qufu, woke up around 4 and by 6 am on my way to Jinan International Airport which was a 4 hours drive from Qufu to catch a flight to Beijing, my last stop.

5th day in China

This morning, we went to see my cousin who own a pig farm in Qingdao. Anyway, I saw many interesting things there like the cotton trees (on the left) and the lettuce. I can't believe how huge it was.

Besides that the farm is also huge............

After visiting my cousin in Qingdao, we continued our way to Zibo, which the journey took about 3 hours.


Zibo is in the center of Shandong Province, neighboring Mt Taishan in the south and backing the Yellow River in the north. It is also bordered by hot coastal tourist cities, Qingdao, Yantai, and Weihai in the east, and the capital city of the province, Jinan in the west. History: Zibo was the capital city of Qi Kingdom, one of the five powers in the Spring and Autumn Period (770BC-476BC). The city of Zibo was the birthplace of Cuju, a game regarded as the origin of ancient football (the FIFA recognizes Zibo as football's place of origin).

Although there are many attractions here, we didn't get to go. It was not part of the plan. We only stay here because tomorrow we are going to visit Qufu, the birthplace of Confusius....

3rd and 4th day in China

Today, I visited Weihai. Located in the east end of Shandong Province, its neighbors Yantai in the west and is separated from the Korean Peninsular and Japanese chain islands by the sea in the east.
We had the opportunity to burn firecrackers...all 5 of them as a sign of prosperity and peace in a very famous temple here. I like one of the attractions which is the Quan Yin Pusa emitting water...


Anyway, I spent 2 nights in Qingdao, a beautiful seaside port. For me, it looks like Penang and Kuantan combined together. I saw a Jusco here.

I got to spend time in the beer factory, tasting newly fresh brew beer.







I also got the opportunity to visit Little Fish Hill, where one can see the whole of Qingdao. One cannot believe how it was when I stepped down from the bus. It was dammmmmm freezing cold. The cold wind can pierce your heart.

2nd day in china

The breakfast I had today is different from the previous ones I had in other hotel. The menu include sushi and Korean food. Can u beat that?

After checking out from the hotel, our first stop is Penglai. Penglai, as a beautiful seaside city, is situated at Shandong Peninsula, bordering Bohai Sea and Yellow Sea, with Liaodong Peninsula on the opposite bank. It has beautiful sceneries, enjoying a pleasant climate with no severe cold of winter, no intense heat of summer. It is famous for "the marvelous spectacles of the mirage", the legend of "the Eight Immortals crossing the sea", "the world famous Penglai pavilion" and Penglai Water Castle and many historical spots.



The famous mirage of all..the replica of Penglai.





I climbed up the steps to become one of the 'angel' hahahahaha... The sceneries are beautiful.

After that, I went to Weihai... This is where I am now. Coooooollll... I had whiskey with dinner...,

13th Oct - Going to China

Woke around 415, took bath and by 530 on my way to Changi Airport with my uncle and aunt. By 840, I was on my way to Peking on SQ802. Around two something, I arrived at Peking, China. The airport is huge but the human resources are terrible. Although Peking is a metropolitan, the people working in the airport are not well trained. They are unprofessional. At this juncture, I feel like Malaysia is better. I was suppose to transit at 615 to YinTai but the flight was delayed until 800. I boarded the national flight Air China. The plane is dirty and the steward and stewardess couldn't converse well in English. The flight was further delayed due to the congestion with planes flying in and out. By the time I reached YanTai, it was nearly 10.00. I stepped out from the plane, never expecting it to be cold. Well, it's nearly winter and the temperature was 10 degree celcius. I checked into a beautiful hotel and it's rooms are vast. Like the one in Langkasuka Beach Hotel.

Getting busy

It has been awhile since I blog. I have been busy lately.... busy getting my life back on track. It all went downhill before the Raya, thanks to no good person and his idiotic hypocrite girlfriend aka twice divorcee. Anyway..for the past 2 or 3 weeks, I have been changing my style and attitude and I have learn that money is important in whatever you do. So, now I have programmed my mental attitude is to earn money asap and to gain power as to get back at those people who wronged me.

For the past 3 days, I have been invited to close gatherings organized by the VIPS. One is by the local counsellor and the other is one Datuk who own a 5 storey banglo in Teluk Gong. Guess what, Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim was there. Hahaha..never think of meeting him up close and personal..

Well, in 12 hours time, I would be making my trip to China with the first stop in Singapore. The trip of the year. I wonder would I be able to cope.....after all the mental stress on me. Well... wish me good trip and good health........

Did the unbelievable

Today, I did the unbelievable which I would have never thought of doing. I wore a new sexy clothing. How sexy it is???? It is... but I won't go on to describe here... I still cannot get use to the look people have given me. Even aunties have come to see me for second time... hahaha
I took up the dare as a fren said if I want to change then change drastically, be more open about femininity and your sexuality. Throw the old self away.. let the new you emerge.. Well... here I am still not use to it....

My Fav Song

Turn and toss

I didn't get much sleep last nite. I turned and tossed like a 'roti canai' the whole night. Many questions have popped up and I can't answer them. I was accused being the 3rd party again last nite. As far as the memories go, well, it is the 3rd time. 3rd time is enough for me. I am sick of being the 3rd party all the time. I just wish I can be the 2nd party or the 1st party.

Well, this experinces has left me devastated and taught me a lesson well learnt. Never ever trust a person whole heartedly again....Never ever be fully nice to a person again. It's really hurt to be hurled abuses and statements. Well, I've done this to another person. I wonder should I give the person a piece of mind.... Come to think of it, it's not worth while because first of all the person who hurled the abuses is way below my standard. Secondly, there's no point in defending me as it would only make matters worst. Erm... should I play with the person like a cat is teasing a mouse?

Mental Block

It has been a few days since I really write down my feelings and thoughts in this blog. Right now, I have nothing to jot down. There's nothing new going on in this life of mine. Everyday has been filled with shopping and travelling... I had never spent so much money within a week... almost RM 2000. That's bad. I am undergoing a big change in my life. I don't know what's the outcome..good or bad but it's still the process I have to go through.

Today, O and I went in search of Guan Yin Temple in PJ. It's real funny that I can't locate its address in the internet. We have asked several people who have been there but they can't give the exact location. Thus... in my mind... I guess it's not my time to go there...

Anyway, O and I went to see another friend, P in Pandan Indah and the 4 of us, together with P's daughter went for a lunch at Tesco Extra....

I think that's all the interesting thing that happened to me today.

Waiting....waiting.....and waiting

I really don't like waiting. It really ticks me. When people told me, yes, I'll online tonight to talk to you and I would be waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting till no ends. When people say, I'll sms you tonight, again I'll be waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and there will be no sms. Waiting is a hard act to do........

Don't blame people when u don't follow the law

I thought we need to wear helmets when we ride on motorcycles.. Erm.. looks like we don't need one. This photo was taken in a residential area..

Back home, back to reality, back to problems

Can you believe it that when I went flying the other day, my flight was delayed and when the time for me to fly back, it was push forward? It's like an invisible hand, go quickly to whatever you are going to face sooner than before. For once, I was dragging my feet to the airport. I didn't get much sleep the other night coz i was worried that I would miss my flight. I don't want to buy a new ticket. Anyway, if not for the fact I have to apply for a visa, I would not have come back so early. It wasnt a fun trip nor a good tip nor a peaceful trip..

Wait for me.. I want to move forward also..........

Woke up early today and managed to catch the sunrise.... Should have slept late but thanks to a child's giggling... I woke up............ , Even though woke up early, it took me 3 hours to get out from the room... Hahaha, so no free breakfast for me. I have to buy my own breakfast which consisted of 2 roti canai and a teh tarik.

Once I settled my stomach, off I went to look for souvenir.


On my way there, I stopped at this place... This is the Andaman Sea...








This is where I found the souvenirs...not the sands but from the stalls there.








Next, I visited my friend, who is the F&B executive of one of the hotels. This view was taken from the top of that hotel...His personal view. Nice right... I had my lunch with him... I had only cream of chicken and soya bean.... huhuhuhu.





After I have helped him to send food to his sister... I am on my way to shopping...I bought only 2 cotton shirts.


My next stop is the place where Jo would show me the sunrise if there's an opportunity. The first time I stopped at that place (it's in Ulu Melaka) it was dark with clouds and for me the view looked fantastic. Too bad I didn't have a nice camera but Jo said I do cause we can take photos using our eyes and keep it locked forever in our brain. This time however, I have a camera.




My next stop is the view next to the airport. It never failed to amaze me. Previously, the sea can bring an instant calmness to my mind but this time it cannot. I guess the problem is too big and I have yet to let go.






This is also another favourite place of mine but alas the familiar feeling is gone, replaced by a new one. I guess it is asking me to let go.







This is the beginning of the sunset...










This is the end result.










Here, is where I met another old friend of mine. She's not that old anyway and is still available. Any takers...hahahaha. She told me she will be moving to Nilai next year to search for a better living... Good luck to her.





Everyone I know from here are moving towards a new chapter. I guess I cannot stay at this level anymore. I MUST MOVE on and I need a lot of strength to do so. Is there anyone who can lend a hand??

When I was sitting for SPM level, I was already trained as a music teacher. I used to play this song a lot. I played it when I was happy, I played it when I was sad, I played it when I was angry. I could not interpret this song. The notes are easy to play but to play the soul of this music is not easy. I believe I have yet achieve that level....

Two weeks ago I was happily enjoying holidays with friends and we stayed until early in the morning but today.. I still haven't retire and I am alone. People asked me why I came alone... I just laughed and say.. it's better this way. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't.. This is one of those time when I wish I am with friends...

Due to the reason, I was alone with no brother nor sister to accompany throughout the growing process, I can play a lot of songs. I have no one to fight with hahaha thus I have plenty of time to practice.

Richard Clayderman

I always love this guy..... When I was small, I used to play his musical pieces... but can never be good as him

On my way to a new chapter

Yes...hopefully I am on the right track to a new chapter of my life. This past 2 weeks have been nerve wrecking with bad news one after another... 2 weeks ago I was enjoying life and now.....

And today, I planned to erase all the bad events out of my life and try to start afresh.. It won't be easy letting go the past especially something which I held very dear to my heart. Still I have to do it otherwise it will do me no good.

So, off I went to a place where a lot of things happened there... just to test myself whether I can really let go of the past.

Here I was, waited for the flight to come.. AK 5326 which suppose
to depart around 1405 but delayed for one hour..... &#^*$ which I was suppose to feel but I didn't at all... Wonder why??

Anyway, I saw many people..old, young moving around..each with their own agenda and ME was standing or sitting alone without any feeling except for feeling hurt, sad, grieve and hopeless at the same time. All of the sudden, feel like crying but I told myself.. to totally distant myself from the past, I have to move on...

In the flight, I felt so empty. Normally, I would enjoy being in a flight. I love the feeling of taking off cause it make me feel that I am leaving all my problems behind but this time I felt like the problems are haunting me wherever I go. People all around are smiling, giggling all the way, I am the only one with the sad, gloomy eyes.

It was sunny when I landed here. I was told that it rained heavily back home. Hahaha..... got myself a nissan sentra 1.6 (8396B), off I went to check in at the same hotel which hold so many fond memories....BAD MISTAKE!!!



Here's my room... Spacious right....can you hear the sound of pillow calling to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz???







Here's the view from my window... see... no rain







This is the airport where I landed.....








Everywhere I went, the memories not far behind...Painful but still have to move forward. I have the chance to talk to Jo's mum. She's not feeling well... food poisoning. I visited her restaurant - Shamrock and had a big banana split there...feeling guilty right now.

I always love sunset... look at this a gloomy sunset... hahahaha








Anyway.. I am here right now updating my blog.. with nobody around...only feelings. I felt a little better now after I went to several places which holds a lot of memories and they didn't affect me much.

Thought this video is appropriate here.....




I HOPE EVERYDAY WILL GET BETTER JUST LIKE SOMEONE SAID.......................

The opposite of love is hate

There is a fine line between love and hate. Cupid has made it so thin that immediately when one fall out of love, hate would emerge.

When the Cupid fires an arrow of love to a couple, definitely, they will accept all faults of the other partner such as not flushing the toilet after using it, seldom brush their teeth, bad odor .......They don't see any faults with their partner. Everyday for them is like a day full of love and they cannot bear the parting.

However, when they fell OUT of love... whoala, the devil they never knew existed, emerge, taken over the angelic figure..becoming the vengeful machine...wrecking their partner's life... some even ended up in death. Well like they say...till death do us apart.

Watch it if u are not afraid of blood... I mean.....a LOT OF BLOODS

I have chanced upon many blogs and photos but I have never come across photos such as these... So gruesome and horrific... Makes me want to puke...... PEOPLE SLAUGHTERING PEOPLE FOR MEAT just like people slaughtering chicken, lambs, cows etc....

Already gave you warning... It's not a joke.. I don't whether the photos are doctored or real....

Still want to have a look then...

Ok

Here's the link. I won't post them here because I don't want to get complaints from human rights.....................

Are you sure you want to continue?

Ok.. before you continue, make sure your stomach is empty...

THESE PHOTOS ARE NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED AND PREGNANT LADY

Here's the Link
http://twilightzone518.blogspot.com/2009/07/so-sad-so-cruel-part-1.html

First time is enough for me...........Can't believe they can do that.

Definitely you won't find this book in Malaysia

This book is on sex education. I won't go into details... Here's the link


http://twilightzone518.blogspot.com/2008/07/sex-education-in-europe.html

Ipoh Mali

This morning woke up at 4 am and by 5 am on my way to Ipoh. It's nice to drive early in the morning. The air is fresh and there was less traffic on the road. This time, I cannot see the sunrise because it was cloudy.

While driving, i remembered my last week trip to Penang. It was at dawn when I reached home. I have the opportunity to see sunrise. At that time, I didn't know that, that trip would change my life forever.. I don't know whether is for the good or for bad.

Mental block

Can't think of or feel of anything to write down. Can't believe it just spent around RM 500 on clothing and shoes... what happened leh???

What i reap is what i sow ...........

What i reap is what i sow.................I understand this then how come my heart hurt like thousands of knives just went through it over and over again. I guess that this is one level of hell they never mentioned.. level 19.. the deepest one of all.. Here, your mind will replay the incidents over and over and over again. It would be like a never ending cycle..

Cycle that would not end until I have let it all go. Wonder when will it be?

Crushed Heart.........Till Dust

This week has started on a wrong foot. A more than 4 years relationship has come to an end. Yes I am damm heart broken... still cannot understand what has happened.

I was trying to pick pieces of the crushed when I had the opportunity to see a dvd borrowed from O. The title is Strange Talk ( series on paranormal activities). The topic is on three-year-old Shearwel Ooi Ying Ying. It's not about how she has died 3 times, one is where her innocent life is being taken from her, the second time is where she was dismembered and lastly, some of her remains which were not thrown into the river was being burnt in a graveyard. This is not about her death but her after life that really made me think how minor my heartache is.

In that episode. the master explained that she has been dismembered and since some her body parts cannot be found, she cannot have a complete soul thus it would be very difficult for her to reborn. Some of her remains have been found but her adorable head is lost forever.

The master tried reassemble her soul and with the helps of the public on 28/11/2008, she was her soul was assembled and resided in a temple in Penang. Before she was 'assembled', she came to her grandma, telling her that she was very cold and that she hated her mum for abandon her. It was a heartbreaking scene hearing what she has to say.

My heartache is nothing compared to what she has to go through after her death. I caused my own heartache. I put in too much in a relationship and expect too much. I invest into something which I should not have invested. Now, I realised is what i I sow is what will I reap.

Balloons - Frens (part 3)

Well, today 31st August 2009, another balloon has flown away. This time the criteria is that dishonest. It's always the dishonesty that breaks off relationship between 2 persons.

Why can't people be honest? I understand honesty hurts but at least it is not as hurtful than dishonesty. Dishonesty can at the worst can kill a person or dampens a person's confidence in facing challenges is life.

I have encountered a lot of dishonest people in life and so far it haven't kill me yet but it will sooner or later.

I am watching Ghost Whisperer season 3 now. There's one episode in which the ghost is haunting the living, doing the things just to make sure that person know what the ghost felt, why she didn't cross over. I wish I can make them know how I felt and how I wanted them to suffer twice the hurt they have caused. I know, it very unBuddhist of me but this is how I felt right now...betrayed over and over again.

Let's play baseball

You know that if you can't hit the ball thrown at you for 3 times, you are out of the game of baseball.

Well I had 2 strikes for a game in protecting my heart from being too trustful. One more strike and I am out of the game.

I cannot believe that guys would lie about having girlfriend. Why can't they be truthful?

The first time was not that bad.

The second time... YES...IT IS BAD.. I never had been scolded by their girlfriend and boy was it hurtful....

To add to the salt, the guys never apologized... Huh..... SO BAD.

Oh YA!!!!! Both incidents happened within 3 days of each other. What is this???? I can't really understand. Somebody please explain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weather blues

For the past few days, I was outstation. The first place I went was Penang and it was raining cats and dogs from the morning until evening and until morning again and it has been like that for the past 3 days. It reminded me the time I was stuck in Kuantan because of the raining causing a lot of floods which in return blocking Kuantan from other states. It was a miserable time back then.

However, it is different this time. I had 2 understanding friends who helped each another, supporting each another in time of crisis...

I am now in Melaka and the weather is hot. I don't feel connected to Melaka..

Weather can play an important role in determining my mood. At this juncture, which is already past midnite, I was thinking whether to put Jo's face online, so that, my frens can know who is Jo...???
Jo is now happy spending time in Japan with ... That is a big blank to fill in...

The never forgotten trip

We left Penang,after spent hours in Komtar and Perangin Mall. We left approximately 5.00 in the evening, making our way to Bayan Lepas to the Penang bridge.






It was stated on the board that the journey on the bridge would take about 30 minutes... The photo on the left show 2 islands which when there's low tide, one can actually walk from one island to another.




Imagine that. I dozed off after reaching the mainland.. leaving A behind the wheels. I awoke upon reaching the first toll that is I believe near Jawi A was driving very fast. Upon reaching Jawi, one of the tires got punctured. It seemed that someone has thrown nails on the highway to catch unsuspecting drivers so that their car got punctured and that person would 'helped' out but at the same time charging fees... imagine that. Luckily I got a spare tire in the trunk and A quickly replaced it. However, because the spare tire is smaller in size, we have to drive at 80 mph so as not to burst the spare tire.

In addition, we have to stop at every rest stop to cool down the spare tire by splashing water onto it. So, just imagine it, a 4 hours journey has increased 3 fold because of this. We had to stop at every stop and I counted that there are 10 stops and we had stopped at 9 stops. It was a tedious and tiresome journey.

The funny thing was I never get mad and never complained. In fact I enjoyed the whole thing. We talked a lot during the journey back. We got to know each other better during this time. At every stop, there were little incident which made the stop memorable.

For example, this sign shows Perak welcomes everybody except dogs...

OR O would ask A to park near a Waja, so that, we can 'borrow' a tire from the unsuspecting owner. That night, the moon was shinning at its brightest, illuminating our way home.

What seemed to be a 4 hour journey became a 12 hours journey. I reached home around 530 in the morning. Before I reached home, I received a surprising sms from Jo. I thought he would not want to talk to me again after the fight we had earlier. Yet, he sms me, telling me that he's on his way to KLIA to leave for Japan. He forbid ed me from sending him off. I didn't feel anything at that time because I was numb due to the long long long journey. He never told me the real reason he went to Japan. I guess I would never know why and I believe he could not care less. I am sure he is now happily frolicking in Japan and this friend of his is wondering with full of question marks of his real intention in Japan.

Anyway, I took a few hours of naps and before long, I was on my way to Melaka. This is suppose to be gathering of friends but up until now 1030 pm, has not materialize. I just can't seem to move out from my hotel room. Yes, the journey back from Penang was tiring and long but it is one of my best adventures yet.

It is raining

It is raining cats and dogs in Penang. It started raining from last nite around 10 and to my surprise, it has never stopped until now (1242). Yes, I didn't get what I wanted and also I didn't get to see a dear fren but at least I have 2 frens, A and O to accompany me.

We spent the whole night playing cards until 6 in the morning. Throughout the night, we talked about the students, the psychological quizes, our personal traits, love live and surprising, Buddhism.

I shared a bed with O and we continued our talks in Buddhism and the ways to deal with problems in our lives.

We only dozed of around 8 and I couldn't get much sleep as I kept awaking by feeling of something wasn't right and I couldn't pin point what was it. Finally, I pulled myself from the bed around 1050 and started to surf the internet........

Anyway... I am on my way to leaving Penang. Yes, maybe I won't get what I wanted but at least I learnt something else, new knowledge in Buddhism. Maybe this is the thing that I was seeking without me ever realising it......

Aug 28th, Penang

Yes... it's now 1233 and I am now in Bayu Emas, Penang. It has been raining the moment I have left KL and the rain has followed me all the way to Penang. It's raining heavily outside my apartment. There is a drain near the apartment and from the looks of it, the water is rising fast. I cannot get what i wanted to buy in Penang as it was raining heavily. Some more the person I wanted to see didn't want to see me... SO....SAD!!!!
Still I am not letting anything to spoil my mood as I have 2 good frens with me, A and O.

A new change

Yesterday, I lost a friend and reconcile with another. One lost and one gained. It's the cycle of live even though it's painful.

Today, I am embarking on a journey before a possible big change happening in my life. A journey which I am going to take with 2 friends A and O. For them, it's just a holiday up north but for me, it's a big step into a new change. In less than 4 hours I would be on my way.

As for tomorrow, I hope the change would be good for me.

Brothers and sisters

I received a post saying that no matter where in the world, we're still be brothers...
It's a nice gesture and thoughts. I appreciate it.

Okay... let's move on to the things I want to say on that. The person who sent me this post is a guy...

And I was thinking... oooi.. we can't be brothers cause we are physically different. I am a woman and he is a guy so we cannot be brothers.... hahahha

Anyway, I remembered a song from youtube - We're brothers (Renaldo Lapuz) and i got lucky i found this video

Alina - I am Your Sister






Elliot Bronson - I am Your Brother

Follow your dreams

I have great respect and regards to those who dare to follow their dreams against all odds. I have no guts to be like that. I don't like to take the unknown risks. I don't like to face the unknown. It terrifies me. I can however take calculative risks.

I have several friends who dare to do what other dares not to do. We just sit at the side walk watching these friends pursuing their dreams, their lifestyles against the norm.

I wish I can be like them but I am sure I can't. I have to much to loose. Sometimes, I wish I can just drop everything and leave like that, just like Jo and M.

Songs instead of words

Have you noticed that I had use songs instead of words in my recent entries in my blog? I don't know why but I felt it was the right choice at the moment for the songs speak louder than words.

This is what Jo said, words can 't express the the feelings but the songs can


Hah....

Then when the time comes to write an entry, I would automatically find a song to represent how I felt.

This week has not been a good week for me. It started off on a wrong foot and it's not yet at the middle of the week. What else can go wrong??

A big man with a big voice

So touching


Wind Beneath My Wings




I'll be there/Warren Song




In this life





My Favourite - Somewhere over the rainbow.... Listen to the arrangement

I AM NOT OWNED BY ANYBODY

Nobody owns me... not the banks, the creditors, the government, not the work, not anybody except for GOD and the devil (if I have sold my soul to him)

So, Pls don't say that I am belong to someone or something for I Am NOT OWNED. I am Me...PERIOD

Balloons - Frens (2)

Remember I posted that frens are like balloons, once u let them go, they are gone forever.

Sometimes, I don't want to let them go but circumstances force me to let them. I don't control them for a friendship involves 2 parties. Even if I want to retain, but if the other party insist on terminate, then I have to oblige however hurtful it is.

A friendship is based on mutual trust, mutual understanding, mutual responsibility, communication and mutual respect. When any of the ingredients start to disintegrate, then the foundation of the friendship begin to shake.

Unfortunately, I have many opportunities to witness these things happened. One by one my friends start to disappear, they will be replaced with new ones. Then the circle will begin once more.


However, there are few friends which I cherish and treasure. I hate to see them go. No matter how hurtful it is... I just can't say GOOD BYE to a friend.


Emil Chau - Friends




Friends are GOD's ways of taking care of us,
If u should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend,
Friendship is one mind in 2 bodies
Everyone hears what you say
Friends listen to what you say
Best friends listen to what you don't say
Gems may be precious but FRIENDS are priceless
Nothing makes the earth seems so spacious
as to have friends at a distance,
they make the latitudes and the longitudes
A friend is a gift you give to yourself
A friend is one who walk in when the others walk out

True friendship is like good health,
the value of it is not known until it is lost
(from ishie 1024)