Did the unbelievable

Today, I did the unbelievable which I would have never thought of doing. I wore a new sexy clothing. How sexy it is???? It is... but I won't go on to describe here... I still cannot get use to the look people have given me. Even aunties have come to see me for second time... hahaha
I took up the dare as a fren said if I want to change then change drastically, be more open about femininity and your sexuality. Throw the old self away.. let the new you emerge.. Well... here I am still not use to it....

My Fav Song

Turn and toss

I didn't get much sleep last nite. I turned and tossed like a 'roti canai' the whole night. Many questions have popped up and I can't answer them. I was accused being the 3rd party again last nite. As far as the memories go, well, it is the 3rd time. 3rd time is enough for me. I am sick of being the 3rd party all the time. I just wish I can be the 2nd party or the 1st party.

Well, this experinces has left me devastated and taught me a lesson well learnt. Never ever trust a person whole heartedly again....Never ever be fully nice to a person again. It's really hurt to be hurled abuses and statements. Well, I've done this to another person. I wonder should I give the person a piece of mind.... Come to think of it, it's not worth while because first of all the person who hurled the abuses is way below my standard. Secondly, there's no point in defending me as it would only make matters worst. Erm... should I play with the person like a cat is teasing a mouse?

Mental Block

It has been a few days since I really write down my feelings and thoughts in this blog. Right now, I have nothing to jot down. There's nothing new going on in this life of mine. Everyday has been filled with shopping and travelling... I had never spent so much money within a week... almost RM 2000. That's bad. I am undergoing a big change in my life. I don't know what's the outcome..good or bad but it's still the process I have to go through.

Today, O and I went in search of Guan Yin Temple in PJ. It's real funny that I can't locate its address in the internet. We have asked several people who have been there but they can't give the exact location. Thus... in my mind... I guess it's not my time to go there...

Anyway, O and I went to see another friend, P in Pandan Indah and the 4 of us, together with P's daughter went for a lunch at Tesco Extra....

I think that's all the interesting thing that happened to me today.

Waiting....waiting.....and waiting

I really don't like waiting. It really ticks me. When people told me, yes, I'll online tonight to talk to you and I would be waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting till no ends. When people say, I'll sms you tonight, again I'll be waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and there will be no sms. Waiting is a hard act to do........

Don't blame people when u don't follow the law

I thought we need to wear helmets when we ride on motorcycles.. Erm.. looks like we don't need one. This photo was taken in a residential area..

Back home, back to reality, back to problems

Can you believe it that when I went flying the other day, my flight was delayed and when the time for me to fly back, it was push forward? It's like an invisible hand, go quickly to whatever you are going to face sooner than before. For once, I was dragging my feet to the airport. I didn't get much sleep the other night coz i was worried that I would miss my flight. I don't want to buy a new ticket. Anyway, if not for the fact I have to apply for a visa, I would not have come back so early. It wasnt a fun trip nor a good tip nor a peaceful trip..

Wait for me.. I want to move forward also..........

Woke up early today and managed to catch the sunrise.... Should have slept late but thanks to a child's giggling... I woke up............ , Even though woke up early, it took me 3 hours to get out from the room... Hahaha, so no free breakfast for me. I have to buy my own breakfast which consisted of 2 roti canai and a teh tarik.

Once I settled my stomach, off I went to look for souvenir.


On my way there, I stopped at this place... This is the Andaman Sea...








This is where I found the souvenirs...not the sands but from the stalls there.








Next, I visited my friend, who is the F&B executive of one of the hotels. This view was taken from the top of that hotel...His personal view. Nice right... I had my lunch with him... I had only cream of chicken and soya bean.... huhuhuhu.





After I have helped him to send food to his sister... I am on my way to shopping...I bought only 2 cotton shirts.


My next stop is the place where Jo would show me the sunrise if there's an opportunity. The first time I stopped at that place (it's in Ulu Melaka) it was dark with clouds and for me the view looked fantastic. Too bad I didn't have a nice camera but Jo said I do cause we can take photos using our eyes and keep it locked forever in our brain. This time however, I have a camera.




My next stop is the view next to the airport. It never failed to amaze me. Previously, the sea can bring an instant calmness to my mind but this time it cannot. I guess the problem is too big and I have yet to let go.






This is also another favourite place of mine but alas the familiar feeling is gone, replaced by a new one. I guess it is asking me to let go.







This is the beginning of the sunset...










This is the end result.










Here, is where I met another old friend of mine. She's not that old anyway and is still available. Any takers...hahahaha. She told me she will be moving to Nilai next year to search for a better living... Good luck to her.





Everyone I know from here are moving towards a new chapter. I guess I cannot stay at this level anymore. I MUST MOVE on and I need a lot of strength to do so. Is there anyone who can lend a hand??

When I was sitting for SPM level, I was already trained as a music teacher. I used to play this song a lot. I played it when I was happy, I played it when I was sad, I played it when I was angry. I could not interpret this song. The notes are easy to play but to play the soul of this music is not easy. I believe I have yet achieve that level....

Two weeks ago I was happily enjoying holidays with friends and we stayed until early in the morning but today.. I still haven't retire and I am alone. People asked me why I came alone... I just laughed and say.. it's better this way. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't.. This is one of those time when I wish I am with friends...

Due to the reason, I was alone with no brother nor sister to accompany throughout the growing process, I can play a lot of songs. I have no one to fight with hahaha thus I have plenty of time to practice.

Richard Clayderman

I always love this guy..... When I was small, I used to play his musical pieces... but can never be good as him

On my way to a new chapter

Yes...hopefully I am on the right track to a new chapter of my life. This past 2 weeks have been nerve wrecking with bad news one after another... 2 weeks ago I was enjoying life and now.....

And today, I planned to erase all the bad events out of my life and try to start afresh.. It won't be easy letting go the past especially something which I held very dear to my heart. Still I have to do it otherwise it will do me no good.

So, off I went to a place where a lot of things happened there... just to test myself whether I can really let go of the past.

Here I was, waited for the flight to come.. AK 5326 which suppose
to depart around 1405 but delayed for one hour..... &#^*$ which I was suppose to feel but I didn't at all... Wonder why??

Anyway, I saw many people..old, young moving around..each with their own agenda and ME was standing or sitting alone without any feeling except for feeling hurt, sad, grieve and hopeless at the same time. All of the sudden, feel like crying but I told myself.. to totally distant myself from the past, I have to move on...

In the flight, I felt so empty. Normally, I would enjoy being in a flight. I love the feeling of taking off cause it make me feel that I am leaving all my problems behind but this time I felt like the problems are haunting me wherever I go. People all around are smiling, giggling all the way, I am the only one with the sad, gloomy eyes.

It was sunny when I landed here. I was told that it rained heavily back home. Hahaha..... got myself a nissan sentra 1.6 (8396B), off I went to check in at the same hotel which hold so many fond memories....BAD MISTAKE!!!



Here's my room... Spacious right....can you hear the sound of pillow calling to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz???







Here's the view from my window... see... no rain







This is the airport where I landed.....








Everywhere I went, the memories not far behind...Painful but still have to move forward. I have the chance to talk to Jo's mum. She's not feeling well... food poisoning. I visited her restaurant - Shamrock and had a big banana split there...feeling guilty right now.

I always love sunset... look at this a gloomy sunset... hahahaha








Anyway.. I am here right now updating my blog.. with nobody around...only feelings. I felt a little better now after I went to several places which holds a lot of memories and they didn't affect me much.

Thought this video is appropriate here.....




I HOPE EVERYDAY WILL GET BETTER JUST LIKE SOMEONE SAID.......................

The opposite of love is hate

There is a fine line between love and hate. Cupid has made it so thin that immediately when one fall out of love, hate would emerge.

When the Cupid fires an arrow of love to a couple, definitely, they will accept all faults of the other partner such as not flushing the toilet after using it, seldom brush their teeth, bad odor .......They don't see any faults with their partner. Everyday for them is like a day full of love and they cannot bear the parting.

However, when they fell OUT of love... whoala, the devil they never knew existed, emerge, taken over the angelic figure..becoming the vengeful machine...wrecking their partner's life... some even ended up in death. Well like they say...till death do us apart.

Watch it if u are not afraid of blood... I mean.....a LOT OF BLOODS

I have chanced upon many blogs and photos but I have never come across photos such as these... So gruesome and horrific... Makes me want to puke...... PEOPLE SLAUGHTERING PEOPLE FOR MEAT just like people slaughtering chicken, lambs, cows etc....

Already gave you warning... It's not a joke.. I don't whether the photos are doctored or real....

Still want to have a look then...

Ok

Here's the link. I won't post them here because I don't want to get complaints from human rights.....................

Are you sure you want to continue?

Ok.. before you continue, make sure your stomach is empty...

THESE PHOTOS ARE NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED AND PREGNANT LADY

Here's the Link
http://twilightzone518.blogspot.com/2009/07/so-sad-so-cruel-part-1.html

First time is enough for me...........Can't believe they can do that.

Definitely you won't find this book in Malaysia

This book is on sex education. I won't go into details... Here's the link


http://twilightzone518.blogspot.com/2008/07/sex-education-in-europe.html

Ipoh Mali

This morning woke up at 4 am and by 5 am on my way to Ipoh. It's nice to drive early in the morning. The air is fresh and there was less traffic on the road. This time, I cannot see the sunrise because it was cloudy.

While driving, i remembered my last week trip to Penang. It was at dawn when I reached home. I have the opportunity to see sunrise. At that time, I didn't know that, that trip would change my life forever.. I don't know whether is for the good or for bad.

Mental block

Can't think of or feel of anything to write down. Can't believe it just spent around RM 500 on clothing and shoes... what happened leh???

What i reap is what i sow ...........

What i reap is what i sow.................I understand this then how come my heart hurt like thousands of knives just went through it over and over again. I guess that this is one level of hell they never mentioned.. level 19.. the deepest one of all.. Here, your mind will replay the incidents over and over and over again. It would be like a never ending cycle..

Cycle that would not end until I have let it all go. Wonder when will it be?