What i reap is what i sow ...........

What i reap is what i sow.................I understand this then how come my heart hurt like thousands of knives just went through it over and over again. I guess that this is one level of hell they never mentioned.. level 19.. the deepest one of all.. Here, your mind will replay the incidents over and over and over again. It would be like a never ending cycle..

Cycle that would not end until I have let it all go. Wonder when will it be?