Crushed Heart.........Till Dust

This week has started on a wrong foot. A more than 4 years relationship has come to an end. Yes I am damm heart broken... still cannot understand what has happened.

I was trying to pick pieces of the crushed when I had the opportunity to see a dvd borrowed from O. The title is Strange Talk ( series on paranormal activities). The topic is on three-year-old Shearwel Ooi Ying Ying. It's not about how she has died 3 times, one is where her innocent life is being taken from her, the second time is where she was dismembered and lastly, some of her remains which were not thrown into the river was being burnt in a graveyard. This is not about her death but her after life that really made me think how minor my heartache is.

In that episode. the master explained that she has been dismembered and since some her body parts cannot be found, she cannot have a complete soul thus it would be very difficult for her to reborn. Some of her remains have been found but her adorable head is lost forever.

The master tried reassemble her soul and with the helps of the public on 28/11/2008, she was her soul was assembled and resided in a temple in Penang. Before she was 'assembled', she came to her grandma, telling her that she was very cold and that she hated her mum for abandon her. It was a heartbreaking scene hearing what she has to say.

My heartache is nothing compared to what she has to go through after her death. I caused my own heartache. I put in too much in a relationship and expect too much. I invest into something which I should not have invested. Now, I realised is what i I sow is what will I reap.

Balloons - Frens (part 3)

Well, today 31st August 2009, another balloon has flown away. This time the criteria is that dishonest. It's always the dishonesty that breaks off relationship between 2 persons.

Why can't people be honest? I understand honesty hurts but at least it is not as hurtful than dishonesty. Dishonesty can at the worst can kill a person or dampens a person's confidence in facing challenges is life.

I have encountered a lot of dishonest people in life and so far it haven't kill me yet but it will sooner or later.

I am watching Ghost Whisperer season 3 now. There's one episode in which the ghost is haunting the living, doing the things just to make sure that person know what the ghost felt, why she didn't cross over. I wish I can make them know how I felt and how I wanted them to suffer twice the hurt they have caused. I know, it very unBuddhist of me but this is how I felt right now...betrayed over and over again.

Let's play baseball

You know that if you can't hit the ball thrown at you for 3 times, you are out of the game of baseball.

Well I had 2 strikes for a game in protecting my heart from being too trustful. One more strike and I am out of the game.

I cannot believe that guys would lie about having girlfriend. Why can't they be truthful?

The first time was not that bad.

The second time... YES...IT IS BAD.. I never had been scolded by their girlfriend and boy was it hurtful....

To add to the salt, the guys never apologized... Huh..... SO BAD.

Oh YA!!!!! Both incidents happened within 3 days of each other. What is this???? I can't really understand. Somebody please explain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weather blues

For the past few days, I was outstation. The first place I went was Penang and it was raining cats and dogs from the morning until evening and until morning again and it has been like that for the past 3 days. It reminded me the time I was stuck in Kuantan because of the raining causing a lot of floods which in return blocking Kuantan from other states. It was a miserable time back then.

However, it is different this time. I had 2 understanding friends who helped each another, supporting each another in time of crisis...

I am now in Melaka and the weather is hot. I don't feel connected to Melaka..

Weather can play an important role in determining my mood. At this juncture, which is already past midnite, I was thinking whether to put Jo's face online, so that, my frens can know who is Jo...???
Jo is now happy spending time in Japan with ... That is a big blank to fill in...

The never forgotten trip

We left Penang,after spent hours in Komtar and Perangin Mall. We left approximately 5.00 in the evening, making our way to Bayan Lepas to the Penang bridge.






It was stated on the board that the journey on the bridge would take about 30 minutes... The photo on the left show 2 islands which when there's low tide, one can actually walk from one island to another.




Imagine that. I dozed off after reaching the mainland.. leaving A behind the wheels. I awoke upon reaching the first toll that is I believe near Jawi A was driving very fast. Upon reaching Jawi, one of the tires got punctured. It seemed that someone has thrown nails on the highway to catch unsuspecting drivers so that their car got punctured and that person would 'helped' out but at the same time charging fees... imagine that. Luckily I got a spare tire in the trunk and A quickly replaced it. However, because the spare tire is smaller in size, we have to drive at 80 mph so as not to burst the spare tire.

In addition, we have to stop at every rest stop to cool down the spare tire by splashing water onto it. So, just imagine it, a 4 hours journey has increased 3 fold because of this. We had to stop at every stop and I counted that there are 10 stops and we had stopped at 9 stops. It was a tedious and tiresome journey.

The funny thing was I never get mad and never complained. In fact I enjoyed the whole thing. We talked a lot during the journey back. We got to know each other better during this time. At every stop, there were little incident which made the stop memorable.

For example, this sign shows Perak welcomes everybody except dogs...

OR O would ask A to park near a Waja, so that, we can 'borrow' a tire from the unsuspecting owner. That night, the moon was shinning at its brightest, illuminating our way home.

What seemed to be a 4 hour journey became a 12 hours journey. I reached home around 530 in the morning. Before I reached home, I received a surprising sms from Jo. I thought he would not want to talk to me again after the fight we had earlier. Yet, he sms me, telling me that he's on his way to KLIA to leave for Japan. He forbid ed me from sending him off. I didn't feel anything at that time because I was numb due to the long long long journey. He never told me the real reason he went to Japan. I guess I would never know why and I believe he could not care less. I am sure he is now happily frolicking in Japan and this friend of his is wondering with full of question marks of his real intention in Japan.

Anyway, I took a few hours of naps and before long, I was on my way to Melaka. This is suppose to be gathering of friends but up until now 1030 pm, has not materialize. I just can't seem to move out from my hotel room. Yes, the journey back from Penang was tiring and long but it is one of my best adventures yet.

It is raining

It is raining cats and dogs in Penang. It started raining from last nite around 10 and to my surprise, it has never stopped until now (1242). Yes, I didn't get what I wanted and also I didn't get to see a dear fren but at least I have 2 frens, A and O to accompany me.

We spent the whole night playing cards until 6 in the morning. Throughout the night, we talked about the students, the psychological quizes, our personal traits, love live and surprising, Buddhism.

I shared a bed with O and we continued our talks in Buddhism and the ways to deal with problems in our lives.

We only dozed of around 8 and I couldn't get much sleep as I kept awaking by feeling of something wasn't right and I couldn't pin point what was it. Finally, I pulled myself from the bed around 1050 and started to surf the internet........

Anyway... I am on my way to leaving Penang. Yes, maybe I won't get what I wanted but at least I learnt something else, new knowledge in Buddhism. Maybe this is the thing that I was seeking without me ever realising it......

Aug 28th, Penang

Yes... it's now 1233 and I am now in Bayu Emas, Penang. It has been raining the moment I have left KL and the rain has followed me all the way to Penang. It's raining heavily outside my apartment. There is a drain near the apartment and from the looks of it, the water is rising fast. I cannot get what i wanted to buy in Penang as it was raining heavily. Some more the person I wanted to see didn't want to see me... SO....SAD!!!!
Still I am not letting anything to spoil my mood as I have 2 good frens with me, A and O.

A new change

Yesterday, I lost a friend and reconcile with another. One lost and one gained. It's the cycle of live even though it's painful.

Today, I am embarking on a journey before a possible big change happening in my life. A journey which I am going to take with 2 friends A and O. For them, it's just a holiday up north but for me, it's a big step into a new change. In less than 4 hours I would be on my way.

As for tomorrow, I hope the change would be good for me.

Brothers and sisters

I received a post saying that no matter where in the world, we're still be brothers...
It's a nice gesture and thoughts. I appreciate it.

Okay... let's move on to the things I want to say on that. The person who sent me this post is a guy...

And I was thinking... oooi.. we can't be brothers cause we are physically different. I am a woman and he is a guy so we cannot be brothers.... hahahha

Anyway, I remembered a song from youtube - We're brothers (Renaldo Lapuz) and i got lucky i found this video

Alina - I am Your Sister






Elliot Bronson - I am Your Brother

Follow your dreams

I have great respect and regards to those who dare to follow their dreams against all odds. I have no guts to be like that. I don't like to take the unknown risks. I don't like to face the unknown. It terrifies me. I can however take calculative risks.

I have several friends who dare to do what other dares not to do. We just sit at the side walk watching these friends pursuing their dreams, their lifestyles against the norm.

I wish I can be like them but I am sure I can't. I have to much to loose. Sometimes, I wish I can just drop everything and leave like that, just like Jo and M.

Songs instead of words

Have you noticed that I had use songs instead of words in my recent entries in my blog? I don't know why but I felt it was the right choice at the moment for the songs speak louder than words.

This is what Jo said, words can 't express the the feelings but the songs can


Hah....

Then when the time comes to write an entry, I would automatically find a song to represent how I felt.

This week has not been a good week for me. It started off on a wrong foot and it's not yet at the middle of the week. What else can go wrong??

A big man with a big voice

So touching


Wind Beneath My Wings




I'll be there/Warren Song




In this life





My Favourite - Somewhere over the rainbow.... Listen to the arrangement

I AM NOT OWNED BY ANYBODY

Nobody owns me... not the banks, the creditors, the government, not the work, not anybody except for GOD and the devil (if I have sold my soul to him)

So, Pls don't say that I am belong to someone or something for I Am NOT OWNED. I am Me...PERIOD

Balloons - Frens (2)

Remember I posted that frens are like balloons, once u let them go, they are gone forever.

Sometimes, I don't want to let them go but circumstances force me to let them. I don't control them for a friendship involves 2 parties. Even if I want to retain, but if the other party insist on terminate, then I have to oblige however hurtful it is.

A friendship is based on mutual trust, mutual understanding, mutual responsibility, communication and mutual respect. When any of the ingredients start to disintegrate, then the foundation of the friendship begin to shake.

Unfortunately, I have many opportunities to witness these things happened. One by one my friends start to disappear, they will be replaced with new ones. Then the circle will begin once more.


However, there are few friends which I cherish and treasure. I hate to see them go. No matter how hurtful it is... I just can't say GOOD BYE to a friend.


Emil Chau - Friends




Friends are GOD's ways of taking care of us,
If u should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend,
Friendship is one mind in 2 bodies
Everyone hears what you say
Friends listen to what you say
Best friends listen to what you don't say
Gems may be precious but FRIENDS are priceless
Nothing makes the earth seems so spacious
as to have friends at a distance,
they make the latitudes and the longitudes
A friend is a gift you give to yourself
A friend is one who walk in when the others walk out

True friendship is like good health,
the value of it is not known until it is lost
(from ishie 1024)

Story

This is one good video and the song accompanied it is so meaningful

This was sent by Jo

Fairy Tales Ending????????????

I found this video clip in youtube and I thought of posting it here...

Fairy Tales



It's Lyrics

Forgot how long it's been
since I last heard you
telling me 'bout your fav'rite story
thought for a long time,
began to worry.
Is it me who did something wrong?

You cried and said to me
that fairytales are all just lies.
I couldn't be your fairytale prince.
but you don't understand
since you gave me your hands
stars in my sky began to shine.

I'm willing to change into
The angel in those fairy tales
Just turn my arms into wings and hold you near.
You must believe, believe that we will be like a fairytale,
ending with happiness and love.

You cried and said to me
that fairytales are all just lies.
I couldn't be your fairytale prince.
but you don't understand
since you gave me your hands
stars in my sky began to shine.

I want to be your fantasy
The angel that you used to love.
Just turn my arms into wings and hold you near.
You must believe, believe that we will be like a fairytale,
ending with happiness and love.

I wish to be your fantasy.
The angel that you used to love.
Just turn my arms into wings and hold you near.
You must believe, believe that we will be like a fairytale,
ending with happiness and love.


The question I ponder is, is it possible to have a fairy tale ending like the one in the song?

Songs that bring tears to the eyes

Have you ever surf the youtube and found songs that will touch your heart and brings tears to your eyes and sometimes can dampen your mood for that day??

Here are samples from them... the first two are from the final fantasy trilogy. Both are sent by Jo


Aerith's Theme




1000 Words




Naruto Soundtrack




Fairytales

Loved and be smashed the next moment

Have you ever fallen in love and be heart broken within 24 hours?

I HAVE....

It's not necessary be love between a man and a woman. It can take shapes in many forms such as a dress, a car, a dog, a cat, parents and children, brothers and sisters etc

BUT to have a person be loved and then break her/his heart is the most painful one of all... not as bad as hell because I haven't been there but still it's the painful. No reason is good reason to break a person's heart within 24 hours.

If it is a love affair between a person and a non living thing, the person's heart is broken can be easily mended.

However, telling the person that dear I love you and then leave the person in the cold storage is one cruel joke. If it's done only one time still acceptable but if the pattern is repeated...... ooi... can smash the person into pieces.

I hope I didn't do this to anyone but I think I did once few weeks back (however there is a VALID reason).

As for me... I am left to pick up the pieces bits by bits, carefully putting the fragile pieces back together. It seems that the pieces are getting smaller and smaller and smaller and are getting pretty hard to put back together.

Fill in the sentence

Ever been into a situation whereby you don't have all the facts or whereby you are waiting for an answer which would never be forthcoming. Without having the whole facts, you are required to come to an assumption. It's like feeling the blanks of an sentence where you are given only the first and the middle word. From there, you have to figure what's the meaning of that sentence.

This is how I felt.. I am always in this kind of situation and I have to do a lot of guess works. Sometimes, it would lead me to the correct answer but most of the time, I am way way out of the right answer.

Well, I am in that situation again. I am in a dilemma and I don't have all the facts with me for me to come to an assumption(s). It is so frustrating and I don't have anyone to talk to least to discuss

I can draw analogy from a love situation. There are 2 guys who presumably are in love with you but you don't know which one is the real and honestly in love with you. You don't have all the facts. You are given the treatment of hot and cold. Sometimes they would warmth up to you and other times there would distant themselves from you. Thus, you have to choose between the two guys. Left with insufficient facts, you might choose wrongly and in the process make a fool out of yourself or hurt your fragile self.

I bet even Einstein couldn't have any solutions to this kind of dilemma.

If you are me, what would you do?

Interesting Events in Penang

A bird is making a nest on the ground. This photo is taken at a temple in Jalan Burmah













The spicy rojak buah










Who is jogging who???











Sleeping soundly without a care in the world










The making of the longest Malaysia Map.












Guess how many monkeys are there?

Is this our legacy to our children?

Nice tall rise buildings near the sea... Recognize the area?????











How about this?












NICE??????










Photos taken at Gurney Drive

I want to fly..........................off to Penang

Would it be too much to want to fly to Penang just to get DVDs as they are very CHEAP there? Go today then come back tomorrow..............

Sounds kind of adventure and fun to me because I have never been to Penang ALONE!... I don't really recognize the routes there. At the same time, it does sound crazy!!!!!!!!!

I wonder would i be warmly received there? Would my fren be happy to see me and greet me with open arms or would my fren do a disappearing act and vanish faster than David Copperfield?


Yo.... Fren... how???? Would you extend yr hospitality for me and be happy to see me????


I wonder.............

A sense of overwhelming

Slept for 2 hours in 24 hours.... not much to brag about.

Woke up with a sense of overwhelmed of feelings. Until now, I cannot comprehend those feelings.
Feeling all mushy right now....... Why am I feeling all this right now....................Happy, Sad, Anxious, Worry, Angry, Loved... whatever the feelings available, I have it.................

Hero

heroes die young and they never leave many words behind...

I don't want my frens to be heroes especially Jo...

So, Jo... pls don't be a hero... just be Jo

I know Jo is on a mission...a very important mission..... just wish I could offer some help.

Just try to come back in one piece......

Loved

Finally, I have some news over Jo. Safe and Sound... What a relief!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This incident has made realised... I am loved by many people which I never realised before.

Should I feel happy or be grateful???

or should I feel scared as I cannot live up to their expectations????

Balloons = Frens

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons.
Once you let them go, you can't get them back.

sent by Karyn

Sitting in the dark

How does it feel to sit in the dark without any torchlight at all? You can't see but can only hear the whisperings and you can't make out from the whisperings.

This is what I am feeling right now. I have a lot of questions and yet I don't have all the facts to answer those questions.

It's very frustrating, makes you want to scream to the top of the lungs.

I don't want to be like this........................... AAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

When is this going to end?????

When can I get my answers???????????

Hello...... don't leave me in the dark!!!!!!!!!!!!

29th August 2009

Wow.. the day has not yet arrived and it's already playing a significant part of my life.

Happy and Sad things would happen on this day

A friend from the past who now resides in Ho Chi Ming would be coming back to Malaysia for a visit

Michael Jackson, placed inside a gold-plated casket, will be put into a crypt set in the wall at the Holly Terrace section of the Great Mausoleum at Forest Lawn Memorial Park in Glendale, Calif., in a private ceremony

A friend is going away, without giving any reasons

For Jo

I know I can't do much from where I am but I wish I could help you more.....

So here's a video just for you... From A Friend to A Friend

J and J

My friend, Jo and I always helped each another in time of needs. Whenever we are feeling like this emotionally





both of us would be very down.


Jo would send me this song





And I would send Jo this song





We would never ask each another this question...




As we both know where to find the other..........


But now

I don't know where you are and what is happening to you...

I don't know how to help you.....................

Please don't leave your friend in the dark..............

Ghost Sightings

Well... well... it's time of the year again... the Ghost Month.

What is a ghost month? A month whereby the ghosts are allowed to roam freely on earth as the Hell Gate is open for 30 days... Thus there would be many types of ghosts wondering freely around you.

For several nights I have been watching Ghost Whispering. It has now come to the part where Sam has realised that he is Jim reincarnated. However this is not what I am writing about.

There was a scene where Melinda saw 3 ghosts sitting amongst the children in the playground. It made me think....

1) What would I do if I can see ghosts amongst the living, i.e. standing beside the living ones?
Would I go berserk, screaming or totally freak out?

2) What would the ghost think when it sees some living person can see it? Would it be happy or terrified or what other emotions available to it?

I have the ability to sense ghosts but I can't see them like Melinda can. I believe the ghosts would not be like the ones Melinda sees. It would be different I think. Melinda's ghosts are so real life. The only ghost which I can remember clearly is POCONG.

Sometimes I think to have Melinda's ability to see and help them to cross over. However, there are those experts who advised me that it is not wise able as failure to help them could result in disastrous consequences.









So, my question posed here is should I see them or should I not????

Penang - the final day

Whoa.... woke up at 640 to the sound of thunderstorm. Guess what....it was raining heavily...

Oh boy... how are we going to have our final activity at the beach???? I deliberated for awhile and I decided to postponed to a 9 am hoping that the rain would stop.

I stood there at the balcony, watching the sea and all of the sudden, something moving caught my attention... it was a family of monkeys playing around near the apartment. It was fun watching them.... but alas duty called as the rain had stopped.

So. off we went to the beach to have our final activity. Once done, the students decided to have some pranks with A and E. So they chased both of them to the sea and they were all wet from top to the bottom. As for me.... I am safe coz one of the students came and asked my permission to get me wet and I said NOPE ...... hahahha

Well, anyway, once we freshen up, we checked out from the apartment and we went to Queensbay Mall, our final destination in Penang. By that time, it was drizzling..... We had our lunch there and we went on our way home.

I remembered I fell asleep even before we were out of Penang.......

Anyway, that's my trip to Penang...... I had some fun while being there but what I not happy was I couldn't get to meet my friend...

2nd chance

Remember that I mentioned I bought a set of season 4 Ghost Whisperer. Well half way through the season, the hero of the show Jim Clancy (the husband of Melinda Gordon) died out of accidental gun shot. The part where he as a ghost broke the news that he has died to his wife and the scene where he promised he won't leave her to go into the light was very touching. Finally, the part where he took over the body of Sam so as to reborn to be with his wife is so romantic. As Sam, Melinda has a second chance to a true love with him. However at the same time, he cannot know that he's Jim, Melinda's husband as he could not have believe it. So, when Sam's fiancee, Nicole came down for a visit, she stayed with Sam and went out with him every day. Melinda has to stand aside, watching them from the far, with her heart aching and hurting deeply wishing she is Nicole.

Not everyone is as lucky as Melinda to get a second chance in love. Sometimes, love only come once and if u miss it, u will never find it again.

Penang - Day 2

Awoke around 640, quickly had my bath and went to join them. Our first leg is to Botanical Garden in Jalan Kebun Bunga. To my surprise there weren't many monkeys there unless like in my previous trip, there were a lot of monkeys. However, this time I managed to cover most of the garden by tram. Nope... I am not going to walk under the hot sun...never...

Anyway, the next leg is Kek Lok Si temple. It was built somewhere in 1903 or 1905, can't remember which year.. I didn't join them because as part of the training, they are on their own to finish their task. Thus, the bus driver, brought A, E and I to the famous cendol stall in Penang. Yeap..the ABCs and cendols were delicious, true to its advertisement of Lim Guan Eng stopping by at the stall. By the way, that was my lunch for that day ....huhuhuhuh

In the afternoon, we went to Gurney Drive...it's a place by the seaside. A place where one can find a lot of things to eat. Normally, I would be easily smitten by a place by the seaside. I am a sucker to this kind of place. However, I cannot seem to bond with this place... I didn't feel any connection with this place. As bad as it seemed, I had to spend 4 hours here waiting for the students finishing whatever they were doing. So, I spent the first hour sitting at Macdonalds watching people pass by. Then another 2 hours sitting at the beach walk, watching the so call sunset (it was going to rain, so, there wasn't any sunset). My final hour, I spent eating my Penang Malay Char Koay Teow with a glass of lychee.
Yes... at the designated hour. the students came and off we went back to our apartments.

We were all exhausted and tired from our journey. Even so, I had to finish the last task in hand with the students. By 1030, everything was done. The teachers and we started our walk back to the night market to have our pre ordered dinner of lalas, snails and fish. It was crazy for me as I was tired and my legs are aching but for friends .... what the heck....

Then by 12 midnight, we walked back. A, E and I had our own little marathon... A was first, me second and E the last. The teachers were way way behind... hahaha

Still, we didn't go to sleep and we had games of card until around 230 in the morning. I gave up and went back to my room. E was fast asleep. I decided to check on my farm in facebook before I turned in. Actually, I was hoping that my friend from Langkawi would be online but alas, he's not. Thus around 3, I turned in..

My trip to Penang - 1

Aug 14 2009 - The day I went to Penang with 2 of my colleagues A and E, together with 41 students and teachers of one school in KL.

We departed around 1030 after all the briefing with the students. The journey to Penang was quite smooth with no heavy traffic.

Our first stop was Tapah. We had our lunch there. It was not appetizing due to many flies there lingering around the food. I had my nasi lemak but I didn't eat much because it was very spicy to my liking.. So, with a still half fulled stomach, we continued our journey to Penang. Our next stop is Gunung Semanggol a.k.a. Bukit Merah.

What did I do here??? Oh, yes... I think I had 100 plus and egg sandwich which was quite spicy... too much of pepper. Anyway, A had mangoes which was quite sour against my taste.

Without wasting much time, we continue our journey to Penang. Aproximately, around 3 pm, we had the first glance of Penang bridge. Since it was not a clear day and a bit hazy, the bridge looked unattractive to me. I wasn't excited to see the bridge at all. Anyway, the bridge reminded me of the one in Hong Kong which connects one island to another. To cross the Penang bridge, we have to pay Rm 12.30 to the toll collector.

Once in the Penang island, we continue our journey to Bukit Feringghi, passing Habour Centre, Georgetown, the pier, the 'padang kota lama', Gurney Drive, Wawasan Open University and the Snake Temple. We stopped for a while at the temples (one burmanese and the other siamese) in Jalan Burmah. I had my first taste of Penang's rojak buah. Again it was spicy for me.

Once finished visiting the temples, we continued our last leg of the journey - Batu Feringghi.
Finally around 5.oo pm we reached our place to stay - Bayu Emas Apartment. E and I shared a room, another room was reserved for the teachers and the last room for the driver and A. A, however prefered to sleep in the hall as it is vast and did not have to share with anybody. By the way, our apartment is at the 6th floor overlooking the ocean. Definitely easy to spot a tsunami if there is any hehehehe......................

Around 730, we made our way to the night market in Batu Feringghi to have our dinner. It was a 10 - 15 minutes walk, passing by Bayview Hotel, Hard Rock Hotel and a mosque. For me, it was a long journey for I am not used to walking so far. At Batu Feringghi, we had our dinner at the beach. The site is secluded but it is known to the locals and it is quite cheap compared to the restaurants at the road site.

The teachers ordered tomyam, mixed vegies and claypot tauhu. Remembering our tight budget, we only ordered mixed vegies and fried rice huhuhu. Again, I ordered 100+, the second one in a day. Once fulled, we started our journey of walking and browsing the night market.
There were many stalls. Most of them sell bags and wallets. There were only 2 selling DVDS. I bought Ghost Whisperer season 4 for only RM 24 for 6 CDs. I wish I had more money to buy Bones and Ghost Whisperer season 3.

The night market is full of westerners and arabs. I am not fond of arabs because those whom I met are rude and they used a lot of perfumes. Anyway, after buying the cds, A and I, spent time in a coffee shop observing people walking to and fro.

At 11.oo we walked backed to our apartment. After taking my bath, i logged into the internet and found out my friend from Langkawi was in Penang and he was staying nearby. I tendered to my farm in facebook and chatted with a few friends before I called in for the night around 3 am. By that time, E was snoring away..... hahahaha

Ooops preparing for long journey....

In less than 17 hours, I would be making my way to the Pearl of Orient... It's a working trip for me... a 3 days 2 nights trip. I hope everything goes well with this trip.

Sad to say, my trip to China has been postponed due to ................ i also don't know because the trip is not organized by me. I wish i could go..

Today has been quiet without Christina around to accompany me. Normally, there would be a dose of chatting between her and me. Luckily for me, there's still Jennifer....

Jennifer - Can't believe we have 8 things in common. Here are some of them...

Common 1 - The same name, Jennifer
Common 2 - Graduated from the same secondary school
Common 3 - Share the same passion of playing Farm Town
Common 4 - Share the same birth month

Imagine that a replica of mine... Luckily we don't share the same surname.... hahaha but sadly to say we do share the same problems.....sigh

Anyway, i really do enjoy her company...

Aaaargh..............................*$@&($

I feel like a balloon inside me is waiting to explode......................

This past few days been facing never ending problems.... how to solve all of it.....

Wish I have a hole to crawl inside and sit quietly to release the built up tension...

chiko chiko ah chiko chiko eeh

Have a laugh






chiko chiko ah chiko chiko eeh
ekor ekor ah ekor ekor eeh
hilang gigi tinggal gusi!!! hahaha!!!


They don't make the movie like this anymore.................................

3 surprises in a night (2)

I talked to another friend about my 3rd surprise...

Here's what she said, if you are her close friend then you won't take it in heart for she meant it only as a joke.

I am against that because as a close friend or even as a friend, we should not make fun or joke of a friendship... because... it' s a blessing for 2 persons in a big world to be able to come together and become friend.

Friendship takes time to nurture... it needs a lot of ingredients..... respect and sensitivity are one of them. This friend said I am too sensitive... maybe I am but that's my traits... because I am sensitive I am able to connect to many people as I don't want them to feel the bad things I am feeling.

I won't take it in heart as to what she said.... because I have learned to put aside those things which are bad and useless. She has the right to joke and I also have the right not to accept.

Whatever happens after this.... ??? I don't know.

3 surprises in a night

:Surprise No 1

KUALA LUMPUR: A counselling teacher was charged with molesting a student in a school in Bandar Sri Tasik Permaisuri in Cheras last year.

Edi Emai, 42, claimed trial to using criminal force on the 14-year-old girl with intention to outrage her modesty at a counselling room of the school at 12.45pm in November.

He was said to have hugged and kissed her.

The student lodged a police report on Feb 20 after a disciplinary teacher advised her to do so.

The disciplinary teacher found out about the alleged molest from a school prefect.

Edi was picked up at the school on Feb 23. He faces a 10-year jail term or whipping or fine.

Prosecuting officer Chief Insp Zolkifli Mohd Yasin asked the court to set bail at RM10,000 in one surety saying that the accused knew the victim and would disturb her and other witnesses.

Adam Yap, for Edi, urged the court to consider that his client was a sole breadwinner in the family and faces suspension from his job due to the case.

“If that happens, Edi will only get half his monthly salary,” he added.

Magistrate Aina Azahra Ariffin granted bail at RM7,500 in one surety and set May 14 for mention.

I know the accused personally as I have business relationship with him. If not for my friends telling about him, I would not have known about this. This came as a surprise as he doesn't seem like one. Anyway, one cannot be sure.....

Surprise No 2:

My maid left in a huff..... Left me stranded

Surprise No 3:

A friend whom I considered to be a close friend just said I am not her friend and because I didn't appear for that appointment, thus she won't disclose the venue where she met an acquaintance of mine. I went numb because I didn't expect this kind of response from the question where did she go last night? She may has treat this as a joke but for me I think there's nothing funny about it. Think about it, after telling you that you are a good friend and after a few weeks said nope, you are not my friend. How would you feel?

Confuse, Angry and Sad... am I being a friend or not? Or all this while I am just a fool being played around

I hope there will not be any more surprises coz i can't take it anymore.

This week in history......

Ok... what has happened in this week...

A few more deaths of h1n1.......

I am getting tired of the political scene in Malaysia

Erna has celebrated her 18th birthday on Friday this week

Two friends Ooi and Phang came down to Klang for a course

There are 3 gatherings of old frens... one is by Lay Yang, one is by Casey and the last one also by Lay Yang.
I didn't make it to the first two but I hope to go to the last one......

I am getting hang of tai chi.... yippie